young modern.

I have (I have) you breathing down my neck (breathing down my neck)
I don't (don't know) what you could possibly expect under this condition so
I'll wait (I'll wait) for the ambulance to come (ambulance to come)
Pick us up off the floor
What did you possibly expect under this condition so

Slow down.. this night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning down
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning 'til there's nothing but dark blue..
Just dark blue

This flood (this flood) is slowly rising up swallowing the ground
Beneath my feet, Tell me how anybody thinks under this condition so
I'll swim (I'll swim) as the water rises up, the sun is sinking down
And now all I can see are the planets in a row
Suggesting it's best that I slow down

This night's a perfect shade of
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room when I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning (burning) down
Dark blue (dark blue)
Have you ever been alone in a crowded room well I'm here with you
I said the world could be burning dark blue

this is how i feel.

almost.

its almost winter. its cold. less than a month until the celebration of my birth arrives. 23, wow. almost a quarter of a century. still struggling to get back on track with life. almost there. but I can honestly say that I feel way more comfortable than ever before; with friends and family. update on the car...almost there. yeah it has been a rough 7 months since the day i had a cool grip on the wheel and shift knob heel toeing just before a corner and shifting to 2nd. gosh i swear it feels like ive had my license suspended, knock on wood ::knock knock:: soon my friends soon...i thought i almost had a chance with this chick that I've been eying for a while now, but that war is over. I need to finish up some songs for upcoming gigs with the crew (6SNC/BXC), so get ready for that!
Its almost 2008, so let's just hope this year will be the YEAR!

-vman


her in the middle of mt.hammy touge [summer 2006] *sigghh*

COPY-lation...

mon:

wake up late work senetek emed analysis salicylic acid low quantification napo ride to bart
gerald drug plug marina jp sherry evie 5th street kessy the pad misunderstandings mis- communications drama avoidance forgiveness drop off gerald back pad am i still a friend? cheryl help. sleep.

tues:

work. i hate work. jp gerald marina ms. maryjane stupid people that feed birds air-raid 2 bowl jimmle rasputins discounted dvds rendezvous with jay jack jon-jon ally public sparring jon-jon's gay jack in the crack 5 minute hoovering full dropped off at home curse of the golden flower impressed miss my love i want to drive, sleep.

weds:

work. get me out! hplc 7 samples too long 3rd party analytical reports harry gets on my ass calls from evie cheryl help too much on my mind, 1:47pm want to go home and watch the warriors game.

did i do a good job? maybe i should be a bit more vague_

I fuckin love my friends..

yep. this just happened a few minutes ago:

**calling jack**

me: sup bluh?! how you been?
jack:im just at the zoo right now hella lit with jay.
me: wtf? i thought you stopped?
jack:erik broke me off, its cool tho.
me: deeem, well whats going on at the zoo right now? any special events?
jack: naw, we just came here to check out some monkeys
me: hahahahah hell naw u hella funny bluh.
jack:hol up here's jay...
jay:sup witchu mang?
me:shit just at work, did you smoke too?
jay:hell yea im lit haha
me:(lol) you tryna kick it later? me and j.p. bout to head to san leandro probably smoke right quick
jay:nigga ill smoke your mom out haha
me:nigga fuckchu! haha iite holla at me.

...it's these types of conversations I love having with my friends, keeps the fun goin n goin. there is more i'd like to share of what has been happening these past couple of days, but ill save that for later. peace eassy....

i want to sing to you, but i don't think you'll embrace it the way I would want you to...

yes ladies and gents, i miss singing to people, or more specifically to that special girl, you shmellz me? I guess its just been way to long since my last relationship that I was able to have the chance to do so. Besides sharing songs that i've wrote (rap songs), I also enjoy singing, although I might not be the best at it, because I'm not, I try really hard anyways to make sure that I can tickle a person's fancy.

::Music is Life::

For those who don't know, I've been in love with music since day one. It's just a shame that I never got the chance to really learn how to play an instrument, but instead, voice was all I had to offer to the ears of the world. Music is the ultimate high!, besides God of course, and I'm pretty sure you all can agree to that. I mean who doesn't love music? So if you ever feel like being serenaded by someone, I would love to be that person. holler at your boy! my 2 cents for the day. =)

talking to GOD: I wish I was aware of my sins a long time ago...

blessed**

this past weekend will be most memorable until the day I die..
if it wasn't for my angel, J.P., I wouldn't be more understanding about my views of life than I am today; a renewed and replenished Vince.


It all started on Thursday, when my shepherd, Binoy, did all out of his way to orientate me about what LSS(Life in the Spirit Seminar) was all about. I'll tell you, I had to endure so many obstacles against the dark one in order for me to be able to attend this retreat. a retreat that would bring me closer to God. While I had several friends over, I was in the upper section of my tita's house with Binoy for 3+ hours conversing about what troubles I had in life, and yes it was excruciating because I haven't been open about my problems with anyone in a very long time. not that it was bad I shared my troubles with Binoy, but that I had so much anger and hate in me that I didn't want to endure much longer; the darkness that has been eating me up for the past 11 years. at the end of the night, I knew I was ready to take on the retreat this weekend.

Friday:

the first day of the seminar. Confessions to Fr. Edward. I don't know if any of you ever had to be completely honest and on point with every single sin you've committed since day one(including forgiving ALL and every single person that has put me in so much pain. this was the hardest of them all), that I had to do so in order to advance into the steps of true cleansing and welcoming of the Holy Spirit. and yes, it was difficult, I actually had to confess twice this weekend in order to be completely replenished of my sins. despite of my thoughts and feelings of being shameful of what I have done to hurt others and myself throughout my life, I felt really good about myself in the end. something I learned that stood out about being pure, Confession is stronger than Exorcism; that it is our own free will that releases the anger and pain that dwells in our hearts compared to having to depend on someone else to do the cleansing for us. **evidentally, there was actually a good reason for my last poem "free will" that I wrote for the poetry slam I threw a few weeks ago** wow!!

Sat:

the spiritual blessing begins. o man, words can't express what I experienced that day, I would have to say that out of all the days of me being on this earth, I've never felt so much Joy in my life; being able to fully embrace the Holy Spirit, and have the sense of being reborn. a feeling I wish all my fams and friends would also feel and embrace. you don't have to take my word for it. It was just God's calling for me to be there(not an accident or co-incidence), to do what he wants me to do, a humble servant to the Kingdom of Heaven, blessed with the gifts that only who are worthy and willing enough to do so to make this world a better place. I can't actually explain what these gifts are, but I pray for those who are reading this that one day, God will call you into his light, and receive the blessings as I have...

Sun:

Thanks and Praise! the conclusion to the whole seminar was also really intense. again, i would have to apologize that sharing this part of the seminar, it would be best if you were just there. "Thanks and Praise to God" I'm pretty sure you might have the slightest idea of what it was like.
Leaving that night was pretty hard, because as much as I wanted to stay and be around the goodness that was present in the premises of the retreat, I knew that going out into the world with these blessings and gifts, I would have to put into affect what God has called me to do; his plan for me =). Thank you God, now I know that through all these hardships and struggles during the dark times of my past, you were always present. It was just a matter of time that I had to really motivate myself to come to you, and open the door to my heart. You knocked on in so many times, that finally I opened it to you. I wish I did that a long time ago. I know this might be awkward for some of you too hear how spiritually-religiously minded I am at the moment, but hey, you can't blame me for being touched by the Lord. In time, you all will feel what I felt.
God Bless you all!

Jesu Christo in Excelsis!!!!



St. Michael's Victory over Satan